Monday, April 18, 2011

4. The Hold Out

warning: mild sexual content


A long hot bath and two short stories was all it took for Cillian to fall asleep. Wilson backed out of the room slowly, pulling Cillian’s door to as he exited with a small prayer that he wouldn’t awaken until morning.
He followed a small string of light streaming from underneath his bedroom door, tugging at his clothes along the way. For the last two weeks, Cian had a reason for not wanting to be intimate. Everything from headaches to Cillian being in their bed had come about. Pulling his shirt over his head as he entered the room, he recalled the way he and Cian couldn’t keep their hands off of each other and all the wild nights they shared as recently as three months before. What’d happened between then and now was beyond him but he was sure the night would end with his wife naked and in his arms.

Cian was coming out of the bathroom when he reached for the knob, pulling at the hem of a short piece of colorful satin that clung to her partial damp skin. He grabbed her hand as she tried to pass him, his fingers trailing down to her finger tips of both hands. She looked into his eyes with question and only received a kiss as an answer.




“Will,” She began but he silenced her with another kiss, pulled her closer to him while his hands took advantage of the exposed skin of her thighs. “Will,” She broke her lips away from his but this time he shushed her. The kiss was deepened as he backed her into the wall then inched his way down to her neck. Cian sighed the moment she felt his tongue gently graze her skin, tickling, taunting, and coaxing her to give in to him. “Cillian…” She whispered through another sigh forcing her hands to stay by her side. “He won’t wake up,” Wilson’s voice vibrated through her as he continued to tenderly stroke her neck with his lips, “you’re all mine.” He assured her slowly moving his hand up her thigh. His knuckles brushed against something soft, more satin that appeared to be trimmed with lace. Wilson froze for a second then went back to what he was doing. Cian never wore panties to bed and when she did it was a sign that she didn’t want to be touched. Wilson disregarded the thin satin barrier and continued to rub his hands up and down her hips before sliding his fingers underneath the straps on her hips, pulling them down slowly. Cian grabbed at his hands stopping him before his hands came over her hips, “I’m not in the mood Will.” Her words weren’t even convincing to her. Her head filled with images the moment she stepped out of the bathroom and saw him standing there shirtless and with eyes glossed over with lust. She wanted his touch just as badly as he was trying to give it but thoughts of another child and images of Cillian crying earlier in the day blurred her need. “Liar!” He whispered running his index finger down the outside of her panties and between her legs. “You want me.” His lips grazed hers for a second. 




He pulled her lip into his mouth, releasing it with a growl, “Admit it. You want me, Baby! I want you.” He purred seductively in her ear causing her to melt with each word. “You want it in Spanish? Italian? Mi permetta di fare l'amore con te, Cian. Let me make love to you.” Cian’s wobbling knees turned to jello and her mind was lost in between his words. Overcome with the desire, she allowed him to successfully remove her panties before she stopped him once again. “Seriously Will,” She eased away from him, “not tonight.”
“You’ve been saying that for the last two week!” He growled following her toward the bed. “What is it Cian? Really? You were just as into it as I was and all of a sudden it’s not tonight?” His agitated tone took on one of concern. What was once a healthy sex life was reduced to cold showers and failing attempts that he was grown tired of.



“Go to bed Will!” She plopped down on the bed, shoving the covers over herself with her back to him.
Wilson stood there for a few seconds watching her lay motionless on the edge of the bed. Something was wrong with her. What, he didn’t know but if she was going to keep denying him the one thing they were both in need of, there was no way he could sleep next to her.  

11 comments:

DaijahV said...

That was beautiful then turned to hot then turned to Will Call me if Cian isn't putting out!

I can't believe that she is being so selfish (yeah selfish) I mean seriously! This man has gone to battle for her over the race issue. He's lost family, friends, moved them to a better area and STILL she refuses to have sex with him because she fears another child crying over a few bad words!

Will has proven he can handle anything that comes at them and is MORE than willing to try! He just wants to have a happy life with the love of his life and prove his love with a large family with her. I'm incredibly mad at her right now...really.

She needs to try and work things out with him. Talk to him about what she's feeling. She'll see just how much time she's wasted over worrying for nothing once they discuss this!

OMG sleep in separate rooms? He doesn't even want to be near her right now because of this?! :( Cian fix your marriage! I can't see her being ok with this happy life just falling apart after all this time!

Excellent update :D

Qui. said...

Cian is being selfish. Instead of talking to him about what and how she feels, she is keeping it to her self like it will just go away.

You raise a good point. He has gone through so much just to be with her and have the life they both wanted. He wants nothing more than to see the result of his love for her in the form of more children.

He is sexually frustrated! Sleeping next to her would be like being hungry and sitting at a table covered in food you're told not to touch. She needs to fix this right now! There is a saying "What you won't do, another person will." If she isn't careful that may happen.

Thank you!!!

Valpre said...

Wow, you know as much as I want to lash out at Cian for not putting out, I get where she's coming from.

This business with Cillian has her worried, and her son is starting school soon. And considering what happened earlier when Cilian was playing with his friends, it's understandable that the last thing on her mind would be getting intimate and possibly starting on working on a second child.

But with that said, Will is not a mind reader, if she doesn't let him in on her fears, he'll take her "distance" the wrong way.

Cian needs to start opening up more. But then again, her bottling things up is Cian all the way, she wasn't comfortable with them being a multiracial couple from the start, and her father's words tainted the perfect life Will's worked so hard to build for them. It will take years, and more than "simple" words of "I love you" to get rid of ingrained stereotypes, especially when those stereotypes are taught at home, and Cian's father has a lot of responsibility to take for his daughter ambivalent feelings about her own marriage.

This was incredibly sexy, the shots and the writing, they complemented each other well. I'm just sad Will didn't get lucky that's all, and from where he's sleeping, it's gotta hurt.

P.S.
Note to Cian: Come on Cian, talk to that sexy husband of yours, and stop wearing panties to bed! Give it up Cian, and show Will some good loving!

Mh, maybe I'll formspring that note :)

Qui. said...

Freedom

Exactly! The things her father put into her head has her really thinking and not liking the things running across her mind. Gary told her she was selfish if she kept Cillian because he couldn't have anyone to identify with. Wilson has shown her that he can handle it and also, so has Cillian BUT each time he goes through something that has to do with race, she blames herself and feels like he is suffering because of her.

She really does need to talk to Wilson about it! That's what happened before. Instead of talking to him about her fears she put distance between them and that distance allowed Ramone to come in and rule over her, force her to do things that at times she still has nightmares about. That situation almost and could have cost Wilson his life so she really does need to think about what she's doing and fix it while she still has the chance.

You're right about that! Will is many things but not a mind reader. He has no clue what's going on with her and if he keeps asking and is just met by a back and silence, things might fall beyond repair. He has been talking to her about another child but they have not agreed on it. As far as he knows, she was giving it some thought and now she doesn't want to be touched.

100 % correct again! "I love you" will not get rid of all the things that she knows they'll face and ll the things their son will have to deal with because of their unsupported union!
Ignorance breeds ignorance and weather people know it or not, they pass that bs on to their kids.

Thank you so much! Wilson was lost in his needs at this moment. He wanted he and really tried his hand. How she was about to resist is beyond me!

LOL yey maybe she needs a wake up call!

holleyberry said...

Poor Wilson :(
If Cian isn't helping him out, you can send him my way :-X :D

I agree with Daijahv, she is being selfish. I really don't understand why she wouldn't talk to him about his. They've been through so much already.
Wilosn has proven he can handle ANYTHING that comes up. He's an awesome Daddy and husband. She should talk to him about her concerns.

Qui. said...

Holley

LOL Wilson is going to be busy with all of you if she doesn't get her act together!

Cian is definitely being selfish. Her reasoning for not saying this to him is because of that dreaded four letter word "fear". She fears telling him she doesn't want another child right now because of her "fear" will hurt him. She never told him all of the details about her last conversation with her father because she "feared" that would put doubts in his head about them. Will is a good father and husband and she needs to realize that before she pushes him too far that he won't come back.

S.B. said...

I'll take him!

There's more to sex than sex. It's being with the man you love and letting him know you love him. If Cian is shutting him out, she needs to explain why. I'm not sure Wilson will be good with the no I can't because I have a stupid reason, but it's better than no I can't because I don't love you.

This is so real. I love every single minute of it!

Qui. said...

S.B

LOL!
That's exactly it! He wants another child but that is not his intention at the moment. He is more on the "if it happens then it happens" more than "I'm going to make it happen". Correct again, she needs to say something now before he gets the wrong impression.

Thank you!!!

Anonymous said...

I hope she does let him know what is up, they are such a great couple, it is a shame they are having problems.

Sweetdreams_25 said...

hey! hey will! come by my place! i can show ya a good time!!! :D lol

its sad that cian is so afraid about having another child, but c'mon on...nothing should surprise her. she's pretty much dealt with it all as far as the racism goes. as long as she has wilson and her son what other people have to say shouldn't matter. though i would hate for my child to feel sad because he was made fun of simply for being of mixed race. will being the awesome big daddy he is clearly proved how well he can handle those situations.
mm mm mm! remember to tell him to call me! lol

Mizzgin03 said...

Ok so I just got caught up! First of all, I am totally and completely in love with this story! Beautifully written and the pics are gorgeous! I really hope Cian lets him know what's going on so they can work through it together. They've been through too much to give up now. By the way, her dad is a dick and I hope she realizes it soon! The world's ignorance was no reason to abort her child and no reason for her not to have another. I can understand how much it must hurt her to see Cillian cry, but what if he starts to wonder why they didn't have anymore kids? What if he wonders if its because they regret having him? This is a tough situation that needs to be worked out as a fammily. And Bianca needs to knee Danny in the balls. And punch Ashley in the face :) Now that I'm all caught up, I will definitely be following this story!